Today has been so magickal and so mundane at the same time, I love it.
I wanted to share an experience with you but it might be a long post so I do hope you will bear with me.
Before I can tell you what was so exciting, I have to preface it with what is going on with me and what I am doing so that I don't lose you in the exuberance.
So I sat down with my crochet next to my reading, not really thinking of anything and listening to the webinar. SARK said something about how so many of us do not know nor do we really think about our feelings or what we are feeling right now. This made me look at the tarot reading to my right and think,
"How do I really feel about this right now?"
Suddenly another voice in my head, which I believe belonged to my Higher Self, said
"December, this is not what you asked for. At the beginning of the year you chose a word that you wanted to vibrate through your year and to bring into your life and that was Empowerment. You asked for Empowerment, not Acceptance of others. Those are two different things."
I was stunned. Stunned. I stopped crocheting, stopped listening to the webinar, and was just taring out of the bay windows that make up the front of our cabin. The voice was telling the truth of course.
The thing is, I know this stuff works - Manifestation, Vibration, Working in line with my True Will or Life Purpose. I know all of it really does work because I've seen it work in my life and in the lives of others. However, I still find myself not expecting it to work. Yes, I asked for Empowerment this year, made it the year's focus and goal, and yet it was as if I had no expectation at all for it to actually come to pass even as it was happening and has been happening for months now!
I see this epiphany that some of the work I've been doing lately with the tarot and Eileen Connolly's methods is working. She discusses connecting the conscious mind with the superconscious by cleaning out the subconscious of learned negative behaviors (worry) and fears. Today I believe was just the first of many breakthroughs I can expect in the days to come.
I just had to share this amazing moment with you all and I sincerely hope that if anyone out there is going through what I was feeling that you too will experience guidance from your Higher Self and see the light, as it is said.
Much Love and Blessings,